Time escapes me here.... I feel as if I could stay and never grow here, as if this moment is my life. I know  what awaits me when I leave this place; pain, horror, anguish, and loss. But still I have to look beyond that, look at the things still good and sane, not that there is much of that anymore anyway.
     But.... do I really care? Do I care anymore what happens? No, I don't, I'm beyond that. I am solid, unbreakable and not willing to crumple under the weight and pressure they have put upon me. This place has changed something inside of me, it made me realize that there are things in this world still fighting for.
     The only thing that still bothers me is the fact that I still need something I really want to fight for, something that would make me want to brave and stupid thing for no sane reason.
     That's why I have to wake up......... I need to find something worth fighting for....

                                                         -This is from a book that I am trying to write (sorry about all the heavy                                                                                                                                              stuff, it fits in with the book.:D)